what am i thinking?

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been sitting at the table all day. did half a math paper, and a quarter of a chem one. wow. i'm screwed. then will be going out later somemore. screwed or what. i hope it's what. haha, wth. oh well, i guess promos is just another exam, test what you have learnt. so hope i've learnt much this year yah. yeah i can do it lah. =)

wtf. i suddenly like like browsing ppl's blogs.. should get back to work soon. but it's really interesting. what's going on in other ppl's minds. so yeah, i wanna read more. gimme more ppls.. haha.

hmm, just heard about our bball juniors. heard they did rather well, which means most will be coming rjc i think. which means there will be tremendous competition for places. not that i am afraid of this competition. i think it sorta strengthens the squad. but it just means i'll have to fight a lot harder. not that i was plannning to slack anyway. i had learnt my lesson. lessons. so will do what i can and hope for the best. go man.

whoosh. what was i doing in school? sat there for so long. did nothing. nothing much anyway. i don't know where was i. couldn't concentrate. really don't know why. not sure. stayed a bit later today. still couldn't concentrate. looked at bio notes till my eyes were blur. oh it's 10 already. man the week is gone? omg. how did that happen? if you don't feel much a week before the exams come, what does that mean? still don't look like i can finish the stuff. not at the rate i'm going. it's really slack i think. sometimes i may seem like i'm doing work, but not much gets into my head sometimes. oh well. have fun. need to start doing the promos papers. man, this seems tough. get going ppl. good luck.

you can't stop tears.

thought i had gotten over all this.

i dunnoe what to say.

look ahead, move forward.

no one knows.

i dunnoe.. i feel lost. i can't think now.

suddenly thought about her again.. damn it still hurts.. what might have been... hey move on yah..

just remembered how screwed up my bball was today.. couldn't shoot from 3 inches, couldn't get a decent pass.. couldn't post-up for nuts.. couldn't rebound, couldn't get past anyone.. ended up standing around and doing nothing of note.. well. what i really fear is that my arm will never heal.. it's been bothering me.. all this while i've never been able to play properly.. like most things hurt.. rebounding, bashing around.. and that's what i'm supposed to do.. i dunnoe.. see how it goes.. by God's grace..

11 rounds is good. went at quite a slackish pace i think.. haha. still rox for someone who nvr run for so long.. felt good. but makes one dead tired. ok, floorball today was quite fun. wanted to play more man.. yay scored my first goal. it was damn nice!! haha it's true.. deflected a long jasmeet pass into goal.. nicest flukish goal i've seen.. hahahaha.. ok i'll stop this nonsense but it felt good man.. oh well, still don't really feel too much stress for promos.. is it cuz i don care? no, i do care. or maybe it's just me telling myself things will be fine.. haha, hope i'm right then. tomorrow's gonna be a long mugging day.. hope to get lotsa things done.. but then again, what you hope and what you achieve can be quite different sometimes.. better get a lilttle work into me before i get into dreamland.

a simple act can make others happy. like we were going home today..then on the bus no seats for us.. then this guy went to sit elsewhere so that we can sit.. whoa, thanks. nice.

then met heng tang tang at eunos.. quite a surprise.. though she taught me geo for one year only.. still rem me.. haha. nice. mugging was fine. cell bio is not. it's like how hard to mug.. hmm, making notes can be quite good. helps me remember.. realised rj is not so strict about getting As for s-papers after all.. or so i heard.. hope i heard right. yeah, so less pressure yep.. which is good. yeah.. we always look forward to thursdays don't we.. pe then bball. rox. nice. helps to relax.. and made a pact with donald to run tmr.. good. thanx been wanting to run for damn long.. hope i can make it.. haha. nice.
hmm, my specs can't be welded back.. so seems like i'll have to aiyah.. screw.. shit, yes, midweek is past liao.. how bloody fast. man, just want promos to be over fast.. ok, get your ass back to mugging.. haha..

on a lighter note, and one totally out of point.. there are three chio bus in rj. i've come to a conclusion.

just had a certain thought.. it's about ppl.. i may sound like a shit here but i don't give a shit.. ok there are many types of ppl to me.. some of them i hate their faces.. some ppl i have no respect for them, none at all.. some ppl are shit.. some sometimes get on my nerves.. most are ok.. some are nice.. some are great.. some i can really feel comfortable with.. some whom i can talk to.. luckily, most ppl fall into the ok and nice category.. forgive me, but there seems to be more and more ppl who piss ppl off.. but there are some ppl who i really hate to the core. actually, as i said, most ppl are good. just the minority screws up. so all is fine.. lucky i don't have to lay my eyes on the shit ppl too often.. ok, this is enough.. din like it? just my thought.. oh well..

it's the stress i tell you.

we seem to be daoing each other..

the days seem to just fly by. before i know it, it's night again. then i look back at the day and ask myself, what have i done today? that question takes a while to answer. most days i learn nothing much. damn. the exams seem so close, and the amount of work to be done doesn't seem to be lessening. omg. save me. i really don't know. i don't know what am i doing. it's like some routine i'm lost in. i'm just being carried along. after all still, i have to do well in promos. that's the bottomline. and of course after promos there's still next year. and the next. and the next. it never seem to end does it? is life all about this? omg, signs of stress. excuse me. my head spinning. i can feel my mind twirling. stress. k relax.

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gotta get used to contacts lenses soon.. hard such a hard time putting them on and taking them off.. arrgh. it's terrible now really.. but everyone says it'll get better after some time.. so yah.. dunnoe lah..

you know.. my progress these couple of days is damn slow.. like for example today.. sat in canteen for 3 hours.. went through 2 phy tutorials.. wth.. slow or what man.. and it's only one subject.. and it's only tutorials.. what about notes, text, doing past-year promo papers. and times that by four.. yeah, get the idea? guess it's the same for everyone.. but dunnoe why i'm really not going too fast these days.. arrgh..

worse still is that i get sian more easuly nowadays.. like after a while will just walk around.. even go play bball.. discipline boy discipline.. whatever, thinkn i wanna play a lil tmr.. heh.. don't know how i can possibly finish all the work.. yeah. starting to feel the impossiblity of this all.. hope what i do is enough..

God bless me. God bless my loved ones.